/SECOND TO THE LAST DAY

Today is Ethel's second to the last day here in the office. I was surprised to learn that, since this is just my third day since I return from my 30-day leave of absence. First reaction is sad because she is a such a dear friend to me, and it is just normal to feel hurt when friends go. Second reaction is envy. I know that I should not be envy of anything, because I am lucky in some aspects, but I just can't help it. I guess there's still a little corner in my heart that wants to be able to do the same, to breakaway and run free from this job. It doesn't necessarily mean that I do not want to work at all(heck, I need to money for me to live), but the sense of having the control- of being able to emancipate yourself from the things that you does not feel like worth your time and effort.


Read: Having the full control to live a quality life.


In her case, things did not have to be hard, since she gets the approval and support of both her parents.


Okay, okay. Just give me a darn break!


I guess I'll just have to accept the fact that I still have purpose to stay in the office. Maybe I still need to sacrifice a little longer for something (maybe more), and at the end I can look back and be happy to say that everything was worth it. I only wish that I realize that purpose, little by little along the way, because I know that I'll need that to keep me moving on motivated.


I am happy for Ethel because she is happy with her decision. I wish her all the best of luck and blessings because she really deserves it all.