/ ON BEING CLUMSY

I hate myself about the way that I am recently reacting on things. From my personal point of view, my reactions are very:

1. Awkward
2. Clumsy
3. Maladroit
4. Not Subtle

The part that I hate most is when I react awkward during the times that I need not to. Like whenever I wal/pass by my crush's pod going to the pantry, or when getting coffee from the vendo and and finding out that my crush is right behind my back in the queue, or when I go out the washroom's door and run by my crush face to face at the narrow washroom door. Grrr!!! I hate being clumsy!!

/ WORRIED

I just learned that my brother in Japan had an accident while working. According to his wife, he and a co-worker was in the middle of moving some iron bars with very sharp edges. He got a cut on his wrist, no news yet on how deep that was, but it has caused him to not able to come to work for at least two days.

This kind of news really makes me sad. As in really really sad. To think that he does not have family there. But then, I am thankful because I heard that his co-workers which are also Filipinos are okay, they are like a small family there. It was only today that I learned that his job is really hard. The pay is relatively lower for others working there, plus the work itself is physically exhausting. He is doing a lot of lifting most of the time, and hazard is really high.

I only wish that this is the last instance of accident that would happen to him in Japan. I hope he find a better job in that country, a safer one, as soon as possible.

/ TRANSITION



I am feeling a little sad because I will be on the night shift starting tomorrow, leaving behind most of my favorite teammates in the morning shift. I feel kinda glad because this means bigger money come payday (because of the night differential pay), but the idea of not being with Mayie, Marius, Erwin and Scmell makes me sick. Somehow, I have learned to like these people. On a brighter side, I still have Leng and Ethel to keep me company. And there is also Joel. Oh well, this is how I would usually respond to changes, that even with the slightest movement, I would end up heartbroken and strucked, especially when the change means not seeing people that you have become comfortable with.

I am a little worried on how my current "okay" state of sanity could possibly swing next month, when I will be awake in the evening. I know for a fact that being on the morning shift for the last couple of months has helped me with my current state of being, which I can call more healthy, because I have been able to get good night sleep.

I am anticipating new breakouts and other lack-of-sleep side effects to come this month.

I also noticed that I have tendencies of gaining weight when I am on night shift. Primarily because I eat more when I am awake in the evening. And, when I am at home in the morning, I tend to eat an extra meal because of the real-life lunch time. All in all, my big meals would be: (1) breakfast (real time supper) before work, (2) office lunch at around 12MN or 1AM, (3) supper(breakfast in real life) in the house before sleeping, and then (4) house lunch at around 12 to 1 PM (sorry if you get lost in the above topic. Even me and my stomach ofeten get confused with my meal times).

Not to add the two small office breaks, and my occasional (but becoming habitual) pre shift fast food tripping. All in all, I am estimating that I am getting at least 7 meals altogether in a day for the month of February.

I am just hoping and keeping my fingers crossed right now, because what I worry most is the thing that I mentioned in the 2nd paragraph.


Gameplan from Next Week on:


1. Practice to sleep well in the morning. Get at least 6 to 8 hours of sleep because this will what keep me sane

2. Eat Healthy. I will do my best to cut fatty foods, soft drinks and coffee.

3. Focus on Skin Care. This, I can say, is my only vanity. So since I will finally get the chance to put on all the creams and moisturizers at home, there is no reason why I don't think I cannot make this happen.

4. Exercise. 3 Sets of push up a day, 20 reps per set (see if I can still add more set/s). 50 crunches. Let us see what else I can add to this routine. Remember Sam, this should be done, everyday!!! ( I am looking into the possibility of grabbing the 30%discount on gym membership in town)

5. Be punctual and practice time management. This is to avoid my Dad shouting at me because of my slow movement before leaving for work.

As what the wise once said "Discipline is a Virtue". Well, since I consider this transition a fairly good reason to start out a new routine, considering putting discipline in the equation is not really a bad idea. Hopefully, this will work.

/ WHAT A DAY!

There is one thing that has been bugging me these past few days at work. I am bothered with the movements going on here in the office. People from my department are moved to the other department, and the manner of execution is rather ruthless.

I kinda like the current situation that we are having here in Chat. Yes, I admit that even though this is the most unchallenging job I have ever had, the fact that it does not require me to think, by far, makes me sane.

I like how Gian handles the team to some extent. I also like my teammates more than ever. After the big merger of the two teams, I feel like imaginary wall between the two teams have finally collapsed, thus giving us more space to bond and talk. With the addition of some new hires, I feel like the team has become more diverse, and has definitely evolved to become a whole new fun team.

I still hate the damn PARKing of questions during crew briefs that would always end up PARKED. Not to mention the unending saga of uncertainties, specifically with technical stuff that concerns the work itself.

Yesterday after logging out, I decided to drop by the bank to inquire about their interest rate for time deposit. I proceeded straight to the lady in the rightmost counter and asked to whom I can talk about my concern. She pointed me to the leftmost corner of the office, she said it was the information area.

According to the lady in the information, they currently have 3.3% interest rate for amount placed in time deposit, and the interest would effect every 30 days. At that very point, I couldn't wait to go home and calculate whatever amount my money that would add to my savings, if ever. I am considering a year of putting my current saving to a time deposit.

I do not know, but lately, I have been really into money and finance management. I have Googled words like: Bonds, Stocks, Time Deposit, Coupon, ROR, etc. Aside from that, I found myself revisiting my old review notes on Accounting.

I believe everything started out with Erwin's loan and new camera. I initially am decided to buy a new camera for myself, too. I am considering Sony Cyber-shot® DSC-H5. But then, when I came to terms to letting go of my whole current savings, plus my incoming PA (I even imagined myself reluctantly paying the cash to the camera sales person), I suddenly had a second thought on the whole thing. I am thinking that instead of putting all my money for that camera at this time, I can wait a little more time while I invest the savings to an interest term--that at the end of one year, I'd earn extra with the interest and still keep my core savings!!!

I am hoping and praying that all of my money scheming works, because I am still determined to get that darn camera early next year. Right now, I am still on the process of collecting information from here and there as to where my money will yield the most interest for the period.

By the way, I also talked with the recruitment officer after logging out today to inquire about the referral program. Still, if my plans would hit, I will have a lot more to add to my savings. I am so crossing my finger and toe fingers on this little project.

Also, I cannot help but write here how thankful I am right now to the Lord for the current scenario in the house. I can say that this is one of the best times that we are having.

The two kids are now in the house. Well, they technically moved in to our house, Kate (my brother DonDon's maldita daughter) and Lawrence (my Kuya Shaldy's not-so-well son). It amazes me how their presence changes the atmosphere that was once full of anguish, making the house finally feel more like a home and a family. Even if the whole situation is not perfect, we are still not sure of Lawrence's medical condition (at age less than 2 years old, he still cannot stand because of weak hip bone), I am glad to because they bring priceless joy in the family. I am thankful that my Dad is laughing now, and my Mom, despite her sacrifice to sit for both of the kids, for sure feels very happy as well.

I will never forget that instance a few hours ago when I caught my Mom smiling to herself while staring at my Dad and Kate in the living room, while the little girl is leaning on my Dad's lap and zestfully paying her whole attention to the Barbie movie on DVD. Truly, nom money can buy the joy that I felt.

I would like to end this entry trough a sincere prayer: Dear good Lord, thank you is never enough to say how much my heart is overjoyed with the current scenario in our home. Thank you because despite of the imperfections, both of the scenario and the way we look at it, we come to realize that what really matters most is the peace within us. I also come to terms of the past circumstances, which I considered dark chapters in my life. Now, I learned, there is actually no such thing as dark chapter or a really bad given scenario, we only do not have peace within us. Because, regardless of the scenario, if we only look hard enough, there will always be a bright side in life. Amen.